The sun shining through the window arouses me from my sleep. I stretch my arms out and arch my back soothing my muscles. I take a deep breath and let it out. Today is a new day. I was able to have an enjoyable eveningafter all the emotions came out. Seeing Bette made me remember our life togetherall those years. People have made it past infidelity beforehavent they? If I go back to her, will I ever be able to forget what she did? Will I ever be able to forgive herlike she asked? I stand up and walk to the window. Looking out I let my mind go blank as I watch a bird swoop down and fly back to its perch in the tree. I watch the bird as it flies to another branchand approaches a nest. Its beginning to feed its young. I feel my breath catch in my throat as I turn and sit on the floor. I swallow, trying to dislodge whatever it is thats obstructing my airway. It must have workedI can breathe, but its erratic. My body begins to shake as I pull my knee in and lay my head against them. Will I ever make it through this? Will I ever have the family Ive always wanted? You have to let this out, Tina. You have to let go of the hurtlet go of the pain. You took Dans advice yesterday. You told Alice how you feltand she understood. That felt good. Thenyou told Bette that she hurt you. You never did that before. It was such a relief. You have to finishyou have to tell her how much she hurt youtell her how much pain youre in. But what if she doesnt understand? What if she just tells me she doesnt want to hear it? That doesnt matter Tinayou have to tell her. The truth hurts sometimesshell just have to live with it. She made the effort to come here last night. She apologized and asked for forgivenessand she said she understood if I couldnt give it. Maybe she wants to work at this. Maybe she really is sorry for what she did. The only way to find out is to go see her. Ill go see her at the housemaybe we can talk over lunch or something.