As I’m driving to school this morning, I feel confident that I will suceed in 1) Getting Spencer to talk to me. (causehow could she refuse to speak to me? she loves me too much) and 2( Kicking Madison Duarte’s fat ass!

 I feel like as much as it’s going to suck to possibly have to fight with Spencer to get her to just be MY Spencer again, it’s so worth it.  

As I pull into my spot at King High, I see Spencer’s mom’s SUV pull up to the administration side of the building.  Out gets Paula, and Spencer, and Paula seems to be yelling or talking harshly to Spencer (who has her arms folded infront of her as shes leaning back against the truck), pointing in the direction of the Main office.  Spencer doesnt budge so Paula grabs her roughly by the upper arm and drags her to the main office.  

Why the hell is Paula doing this?  It burns me that she already forbid Spence to come near me and have any contact with me whatsoever, but seriously, coming to school and dragging my girl all the way to the Main office infront of everyone on campus like that? What’s her fucking deal?

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 I can’t believe my mom is doing this to me.

 Doesnt she feel successful in keeping me from Ashley already bye taking away my cell, the phone line out of my room, removing my computer from my room completely, sealing my windows shut and basically locking me in my room all weekend?  She’s already told me I can’t go out with any of my friends, I can only go to school and work and then home everyday.  She said she will drive me to school everyday and pick me up afterwards and drop me at work if I am scheduled, otherwise she’ll take me home.  She told my brothers,Glen and Clay, that Ashley was a bad person and hurt me, and that I am very mad at her and don’t want to see her so they shouldnt acknowlege her at all and she’s not allowed to come in the house or see, or talk to me.  My dad keeps trying to help me.  When mom’s not home he lets me do what I want and has taken me out shopping and to lunch and the movies…but he said we needed to let mom cool down about finding out about Ashley, and then he will do whatever he has to to get her to let me see Ashley openly.  I’m not going to stop seeing Ashley if I can help it.  There has to be some way to see her without anyone knowing.  If I could I would just walk up to her  and kiss her, and tell her I love her, and how I’m so sorry for writing her that message online saying I cant see her anymore.  It must have killed her; she probably hates me, seeing as she didnt even write me back or call the house when my mom was at work this weekend.  If only she knew that my mom was standing there watching me as I typed, and that my mom threatened to send me away to some gay de-tox camp up north, and told me that she’d have her arrested if she ever came near me again…if only Ashley knew all these things.  I have to see her some how today.  But thats going to be so hard when my mom is dragging me to the Main Office to switch me out of all the classes I have with Ashley.  I know what I can do, I’ll ask Aiden to use his phone to txt Ash and tell her to meet me in the bathrooms during lunch because there’s only one lunch period here.  And we’ll get Aiden to occupy Madison so she doesnt follow us or anything because I know she’s the one who told my mom about us.  She’s such a bitch.  I swear I’m going to get her back for doing this….and i’ll get Ashley back as well.  Only 3 more periods until I can see Aiden in English, and then 3 after that until I can hopefully see Ashley in the bathroom  that no one ever uses down bye the special education classrooms.  One can only hope…