It’s been four days since Spencer stalked off into the forest, four long painful days of wondering where she was or if she was okay and safe. Usually days go by fast for me but these four have gone so slow that I swear I was in hell and the devil himself was torturing me. With out her around though the guys seemed to open up and calm down, talking to me decently and flirting unabashedly. I try to ignore them but they just don’t take the hint and honestly I can’t come out saying I’m gay, look how they treat Spencer and she’s one of them if they found out about me, don’t even want to think about it.

Madison has been like the biggest help, she’s always got something for me to do. I sleep in Spencer room just like the first day, wake up early and Madison and I do laundry after breakfast than she teaches me what’s okay to eat and not to eat out in the forest. Basic skills the kids learn but that I had no need for until know. She sees me scanning the forest ever few minutes hoping for a glimpse of Spencer but I don’t care, everyone can see me and it wouldn’t affect anything. Time drags on, I help cook and clean and the people around here are really nice, except for a few but I stay away from them.

I know she’s out there, one night when it was raining really bad I woke up by a crash of thunder and swore I saw her standing out side the window watching me sleep but when I rubbed the sleep from my eyes she was gone, I threw the covers off me and rushed to the window but saw nothing, not a shadow or anything it was like she was never there and maybe she wasn’t, maybe it was just my mind playing tricks on me.

“You need any help?” a male voice asked leaning against the base of a tree on my right bringing me from my thoughts of Spencer. Glancing up I saw Jacob, he’s tall about six one with red wavy hair and green eyes. The guy is nice and sweet and although he flirts with me he doesn’t like force me into it, if I don’t feel like it he understands and walks away.