Everytime he touches you, it kills me. I wonder if you notice. We’ve had brief encounters before but I don’t think you care. You don’t realize how much you really mean to me. How much happiness you brought. I think my life would’ve ended if you had turned me away. But instead you offered friendship, and I’m still grateful to this day. Sometimes I do feel that it isn’t enough. I feel like you and I could be something more. It’ll never happen though..you have him to have and to hold. It bothers me to the core. My body shivers and I want to die. But then I see the look in your eyes. The way you smile, the way you laugh, your happiness heals the wound in my heart. It helps me think back to the reason why I fell in love with you in the first place. Your kindness, your humor, and your beauty. It’d be impossible for me to be selfish, to make his life horrible would only make you sad…you don’t know how much my world revolves around you. You being sad is like my sun turning into a ball of ice. Freezing me from the inside out. God..you’ll never know how much I feel for you. How much I really care. I’d be willing to dive to the depths of the ocean and travel beyond the farthest star just to be able to say Hello to you….I wonder how it feels. To feel the softness of your lips, the roundness of your chest, running my hands through your brownish, red hair. Dare I even fantasize about you lying in my bed. The mystery of your body finally uncovered to me and only me. You whispering ‘I love you’ while I pull you closer..closer…and closer still…Oh Ashley Davies…I have to get over you. You’re killing me softly and you don’t even know it.

You’ll never know.

I’ll never tell you.

Never.