If I was to describe my life with Ashley I wouldn’t even know where to start. I think I started falling in love with her before I even told her I like girls. I was raised in a home where being gay was not ok and I was afraid to tell anyone how I was feeling.








I think Ashley was the first person in my life who let me be who I was. I remember so many times before we started dating wanting her to kiss me or be closer to me. I remember the very first day I met her we were in her bed just talking and when her hand fell on top of mine and I felt like I was going to melt. She was so beautiful and so sexy and so comfortable with who she was. She was everything that I wanted.








I think I knew then something was going to change in my life that day but if you were to tell me that 10 years later I would have 2 kids with her and one on the way I would have laughed in your face.










After Kennedy was born things were perfect. Ashley was extremely protective even more so than I was. She didn’t ever want a babysitter and when we actually did go out she would call every 20 minutes to make sure she was ok. I love her so much and I love that she loves our kids so much. The first night we had alone together after Kennedy was born I will never forget she was 3 months old and my mom kept her a whole night.








I had to beg Ashley to let her stay with my mom because we really needed time alone. We went out to dinner and she was so beautiful she had a black spaghetti strap dress on and it fit her perfect I wanted her the whole night. Every time she smiled or played with her hair, the way she sipped her wine or ate her food it was all hitting me right in my center.

The first 2 hours she just kept asking every 30 seconds what I think Kennedy was doing. I just smiled at her in the beginning but then she pulled out her cell phone to call my mom for the 8th time and I took the cell phone from her and put it in my purse.










She looked at me shocked and then I stood up took her hand in mine and pulled her to the bathroom. “Ash…we need tonight…..I need tonight…..to be….about us.” I moved her up against the wall and kissed her hard why I ran my hands under her dress and slid my fingers up her thighs.









“Ohh god Spence…..ok…ok….” She pulled me into a stall and attacked my mouth why running her fingers through my hair. This is the first time we had been close like this in months and I felt like I was on fire everywhere she touched me and by how aggressive she was I think she felt the same. She moved her lips to my neck and kissed me as she ran her hands down my neck and over my breast.









“I want to do this in a bed.” She whispered and I couldn’t agree more. Even though I didn’t want to wait I wanted to lay down and enjoy each other.









“Ok….” I leaned my head against hers and tried to calm my heart from beating so fast. We paid the bill quick and left. The drive home was just glorified four play as Ashley ran her hands up and down my thighs and interlaced her fingers with mine right in between my legs. “Spence let me have my phone.” I looked up and handed Ashley her phone shaking my head laughing at her. “Come on Ash she is fine if she wasn’t my mom would call us.” She took the phone from me as we pulled into the driveway and called my mom.









“Hey Mr. C, How is she?……..Ok thanks I was just checking.” She looked back at me and smiled.







“Ohh come on do you want me to have my mind preoccupied when I have other…….things (she said as she looked my body up and down) planned to do.” I pulled her in for a kiss.










“No but that better be the last call because I plan on having your mind on me for the rest of the night.” We raced out of the car and up to our room.
When we got into our room we were both all over each other. I don’t even remember taking the time to get our clothes off we hadn’t been together in months and we knew tonight was going to be our only night alone for however much longer and we both wanted it to last.








I laid down on the bed and Ashley climbed on top of me. She kissed me soft and I knew we were slowing the pace down from the fire it was a minute ago as we ripped each other’s clothes off. “God Spence I love you so much.” She said as she leaned down and kissed me again. I ran my fingers through her hair and kissed her in response. We kissed for what felt like forever until my body was so hot I couldn’t wait anymore. I moved to her neck and she moaned when I sucked the skin just above her collar bone. “I want to have another baby.” I whispered as I slid my hands over her breast and flicked her nipples with my thumb.








I don’t know if what I said just registered with her but she leaned back quick and looked at me. “You…you what?” I smiled at her she was so beautiful totally naked sitting on her knees and leaning over me with her breast basically hanging right in front of my mouth. I leaned up a little and took her breast in my mouth sucking on one and wrapping my hand around the other. When I finally let go her eyes were so glazed I think she forgot all about my earlier comment. “I said I want to have another baby with you.”











“Spence are you sure…I mean you know how crazy I am with Kennedy imagine me like that with 2 kids.” I smiled at her and looked her straight in the eye. “Ash I want to have another baby with you because of the way you are with Kennedy you are the best mom and by the time I have this baby Kennedy will be 13 months old…….”




I paused and she caught me. “What?” I said trying to act casual.

“What?” She looked at me funny.

“You were going to say something.” She gave me a knowing look.

“Well I didn’t know if you would be ok with this but I hoped….”

“And.”

“And I went to the clinic and got what we need.” I looked at her nervously and she just sat back and smiled.

“Spence I told you I would have as many kids with you as you wanted but……” She looked so nervous.

“Babe just say it.” She was making me nervous Ashley is never nervous around me.

“Well I have just been thinking and we never said that you had to carry them all.” I was shocked I totally didn’t see that coming.

“You….You….want to carry this baby?” I smiled big she was blushing. “Ash….” I got up off the bed and left the room quickly going to get the weird turkey basting thing. She blushed more when I came back in the room with it.












“I would love for….YOU….to carry my baby.” I smiled big at her and I laid her down on her back. I got on the bed and ran my fingers from her neck down her breast over her belly which I stopped at and kissed down the outside of her hips and then I leaned down and kissed her lips.










I kissed her neck then I slid my tongue down her breast and circled her nipples with my lips. I kissed her belly a few times looking right into her eye when I did it. I settled myself in between her legs and ran my finger through her folds.
“Spence please…..I want this so bad.” She looked like she had tears in her eyes and I knew that what we were about to do could be huge. I was glad that Ashley and I were on the same monthly cycle because I knew I was ovulating which meant she would be too. It all seemed perfect I thought I would have to talk her into this a little more.







I stuck my finger in her mouth and as soon as she closed her lips around it I closed my lips around her clit. “MMmmmm” she moaned as she sucked on my finger and I wrapped my other arm around her leg to settle her as I slid my tongue around her pussy. She tasted so good it had been so long since I did this I didn’t want it to end.








I don’t know how long I spent I stuck my tongue as deep inside her as I could moving it in and out slowly fucking her with it. Her legs were shacking and I knew she was getting close I pushed 3 fingers inside of her and started flicking her clit with my tongue at a fast pace.







“Ohh fuck…..Spence……I am going to cum…..fuck me baby please.” “Ohh….fuck…..SPPEEENCE.” I pulled my fingers out as she came and stuck the inseminating syringe inside of her as I flicked her clit with my tongue and squeezed what I hoped would be another Carlin/Davies inside of her. I pulled the syringe out and pushed 2 fingers back inside as I felt her walls close around them again…..”Ohh fuck Spence.” I knew I could make her cum again and it only took a minute of flicking my tongue fast over her clit and pumping my fingers in and out to bring her over that hill again.







She laid their with sweat covering her body and I couldn’t help but lick around her nipple again before I leaned back up to her to kiss her. She whipped my face off with her hands and pulled me in for a deep kiss.








“Ohh god Spence I…..I might be pregnant?” She asked the question and I just smiled at her and pulled her to me.









“Do you feel like your pregnant?” She looked at me like I was crazy. “I don’t know how that would feel I have never been pregnant. I leaned down to her belly and kissed her over and over never taking my eyes off of hers. We spent the rest of the night trying to wear each other out but I will never forget that night because Ashley did get pregnant and 40 weeks 2 days later we had our second daughter.










Being pregnant was one of the best times of my life. Spencer pampered me she got me food whenever I had cravings she treated me like a queen and I loved it. I don’t know when I started wanting to carry this child I know it went through my mind a few times when I saw how much pain Spencer was in with Kennedy and how unfair it was that she was going to have to do that every time.











The first time I felt the baby kick I was so happy Spencer cried but that is pretty normal for her to cry when something like that happens even I tiered up though but for years I blamed that on being pregnant it was pretty amazing though. I was very horny when I was pregnant and Spencer was exhausted by me I wanted her all the time. She did good keeping up I don’t know how she did it because sometimes I wanted her 3 or 4 times a day. I had a sexual appetite of a 16 year old boy. She would be hard when I wanted her to be hard and soft when I wanted her to be soft my favorite things was when I was almost due and she would kiss my stomach in the middle of sex I loved that more than any memory with Spencer.









Labor is something I never want to experience again and even though I was happy to help Spence out one time I never wanted to do it again. 32 hours of labor and she was finally born.










We named our daughter Cordelia Carlin Davies and the odd thing about her is that she had blonde hair and blue eyes she looked so much like Spencer even though the donor we chose was initially going to be for Spencer and he had Brown hair and Brown eyes and looked the most like me we could find so we were shocked and very happy that this baby looked so much like Spencer.












When the Carlin’s got to the hospital Spencer gave Cordy to Arthur and he was so cute he smiled for pictures and helped Kennedy hold her sister and take pictures. Clay was next in line he was basically bouncing off walls waiting to hold his baby niece. That is one thing I love about Clay he knows that being blood has nothing to do with family and he treats me like I am his blood sister. When he tried to hand Cordy to Paula she took a step back and said something about needing to run to the bathroom. She left the room which was weird since their was a bathroom in the room. Spencer looked at me with a pained look on her face and I didn’t know why I had no idea what was going on but knowing Paula their was going to be some kind of drama. Spencer left the room and I looked at the rest of the Carlin’s who had the same look on their face Spencer did.








“What is going on?” Everyone just shrugged but I knew something was going on.













I ran out of the room after my mother and yelled down the hall to her.



“MOOOM…” She turned around and stopped. “What the hell is wrong with you.”




“I told you before Spencer and as much as I know you don’t want to hear this that is not my grandchild that is Ashley’s mom’s grandchild but that is not your baby and I can’t pretend like everyone else that it is.








I looked at her shocked and so hurt. I know that I didn’t have Cordy but I loved her like my own child already. She was so beautiful how could my mother not see it.








“Spence I am sorry but I told you along time ago that I don’t believe in this kind of life style.” I know Kennedy is my grandchild but that is because she came from you. And I have tried to be civil to Ashley for the sake of your child but I am not going to treat these 2 children the same because they aren’t”









I waited until she finished I was hoping this would not come up my mom had been so much better towards Ashley since Kennedy was born and I thought she had finally understood what she meant to me. I tried to calm myself because anyone else who tried to tell me that Cordy wasn’t my child would have been smacked in the face. The more I tried to calm myself The more angry I became and I couldn’t hold back anymore.









“You know what mom………I have tried to give you time to come to accept me but you wont. And I have tried to be understanding of your beliefs but as of now I AM DONE…..if you ever want to see me again or my CHILDREN you WILL accept Ashley and Cordy as both my wife and MY CHILD because this is your last chance.” I know my voice held venom in it and I knew I was shacking I walked away and didn’t look back.


When I got back in the room Ashley was feeding Cordy and my dad smiled at me and handed me Kennedy she was still so small she had just started walking a month or so ago and was still getting the hang of it.











“I’m sorry Spence I know your mom is wrong for how she is being.” My dad whispered to me. “I will try to talk to her again.” I just smiled at him and walked over to Ashley and kissed her forehead.









“Spence what is going on?” Ashley looked at me confused and just put on the fakest smile I could and tried to convince her as Kennedy got on the other side of Ashley in bed and laid next to her. We both smiled at each other as she started to fall asleep.










“Nothing my mom isn’t feeling good.” I know, she knew I was lying and I knew this wasn’t the end of the conversation, just like she knew, I knew, she knew, I was lying and that we would talk about it later.










I watched Ashley nurse Cordy and thought of how beautiful they both looked and not to mention how hot my wife looked after just giving birth.

“Do you think we will ever have any boys?” I smiled at her as I ran my fingers through Cordy’s surprisingly blonde hair and she just shook her head. “I don’t know Spence maybe this is meant to be an all women family.










My mom eventually came in the room and quietly came up to Ashley and asked if she could hold the baby. Ashley let her but it was still a very stiff acceptance.











Spencer eventually told me what her mom said and I wasn’t surprised I knew she would be like that just because of how she acted every time Spencer told her something about my pregnancy. The next few months were ok it was a lot harder with 2 babies in diapers but I loved it. Spencer and I cherished any alone time we could find together night time was our sanctuary I remember when Cordy was like 6 months old it was about a week before we both started and I was taking a shower all of a sudden the door opened and Spencer stepped in pinning me up against the shower wall. “Ohh yeah I love shower sex.” I joked when she pulled away from the kiss. I wasn’t lying either my shower was huge and I had all kinds of settings on the shower head massager that was all kinds of fun.












I was more than ready to be with Spencer we couldn’t just randomly fuck anymore sometimes she would bump into me or run her hand up my leg a little to high and we would be in the living room in the middle of the day and have to wait until that night when we put the kids to bed before we could be together and then a lot of the time we were so tired we would “rain check” it but I have so many rain checks we would have to have a sexual marathon to catch up. Today though I was more than ready and after a few minutes of four play I took the shower head massager and put it right up against Spencer’s clit as I sucked her nipple in my mouth. “Ohh.” was all she could get out because I kissed her hard and stuck 2 fingers inside of her. I fucked her so hard she was having problems staying on her feet. I slid down her body and licked my tongue over her clit as the water blasted into her and my fingers pushed in and out of her.












“Ash I’m so…close.” I pulled back and just looked up at her as she kept turning her head from side to side.









Her walls contracted around my fingers and I moved the Shower head massager so that it was going from side to side on her clit that was it Spencer fell down the wall and it took everything I had to ride the wave she was on with her, and try to keep her from crashing to the floor.









She was so weak and even though I was horny as hell I shut the water off and helped her get into a towel and into bed. She fell right to sleep and I went right back into the shower and used the images of Spencer cumming a few minutes earlier to get myself off. I rubbed my nipples and spread my legs wide and I put the shower head up to my clit the same way I did to Spencer. I thought of Spencer’s naked body and about what she looks like when she eats my pussy. I was so wet and not from the water. When I came stars burst behind my eyes and I quickly shut the water off and got back into bed Spencer subconsciously snuggled up to me when I got back in and I pulled the blankets around us both and quickly fell to sleep.








Things were going so good I should have known they couldn’t have been perfect forever. The worst thing and best thing to ever happen to us aside from the school shooting was when Kennedy was just over 2 years old and Cordy was 11 months old.










We had been stuck inside for a while and Spencer and I needed a break Mr. C offered to watch both girls so we could go out for our anniversary and we were both really excited. We decided to go to Gray and just see if anything had changed since it had been years since we had been there. We went to see a new band and when we got there everything had changed it was a lot darker than I remembered and packed I had to hold Spencer’s hand to not get separated as we moved towards the bar.









We were drinking for a few hours when I saw the old bar tender in the crowd and told Spencer I was going to say hi. I talked to her for a few minutes and she was happy to find out I married Spencer and everything was good. I brought her back to the bar to see Spencer but when I did she was gone.