Spencer’s totally avoiding me today. I can feel it and I don’t like it. I’m sick of this. She’s been avoiding my calls all day and her assistant said she’s there but she’s not sure if she’s alive because she hasn’t come out at all, for anything. God, I swear she needs to fire that guy. He cares for no one, never knows anything, has a snar-castic remark for everything and doesn’t do his job. He’s simply there for the paycheck. I’m a wreck. I can’t take this any longer.

After showering and a change of clothes she’s rushing out of her door to Spencer’s office but she’s apparently left for the day. ‘Great. Well at least I know she’s alive but where is her head at right now?’ After about twenty minutes she’s at Spencer’s pulling into a park at apartment. All the while calling her cell and she’s not answering. ‘Dammit! Okay her car’s here so she must be upstairs.’ Sprinting she avoids the elevator taking the stairs, too anxious to wait taking three steps at a time. ‘Not a good idea because now I can’t breath. But for Spencer I’ll do anything without a moments thought.’ Stopping to catch her breath she lightly knocks on the door but no one answers. Still trying to call while knocking. ‘Nothing.’

After about five minutes the mild knocking has turned into frantic banging and yelling at the door. “Spencer! Spence, I know you’re in there I saw your car outside. Are you alive? Answer the damn door!” A few more seconds and there’s movement and the door swings open and she’s pulled into the apartment. All words are lost and flying over her head not quite catching on. Relieved that she’s okay. ‘Wait, I think she asked me something cuz she has the look. Here comes the babble’ Words are flying everywhere, just the first thing that comes to mind. After a moment she’s pulling Spencer into an embrace.

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The next thing I know we’re yelling at each other and she’s pulling away from me

“Just stop okay!” Spencer yells. “Ashley I care about you so much and it hurts that I have to do this…” she pauses “again.” She turns away from me.

I jump to my feet. This is so not happening again. “No, Spencer, no!” She won’t look me in the eye. I lift her chin to my face, “look at me Spencer. I’m not gonna let you run away from this again. I lost you once and I won’t do it again, ever. You’re my number one, babe. I will wait forever for you but I won’t let you push me away and I won’t let you run away from whatever this is. I love you too much to just let you go.”

Now she’s just standing there. I can see the tears about to break and she falls into me sobbing. She calms down after a few minutes of me whispering in her ear that it’ll be okay. Pulling back to see her face I ask her if she’s okay.

“No, not really” she pouts and falls back into my arms but there’s no more tears. Just holding each other. I continue telling her it’s okay and I’m not going anywhere. Pulling back a little I have an idea that always makes her feel better. Music. I walk over to adjust the stereo to something soothing. “How about a dance?”

Perfect. That’s what that moment was, then she looked up at me I knew I was head over heels in love again with Spencer Carlin. The simplest action of a gentle kiss in friendly places and I’m mush in her hands. We danced, we loved, we just were. I’ll never feel this way for anyone in my life again. I have to say something. My head is going to explode.

“Spencer?”

“Yeah”

“What would you do if I told you how much I love you”

“Ash I-” I cut her off and pull back to make sure she can hear and feel what I’m about to tell her.

“No Spencer, I need you to know this because it’s killing me to act as just your friend when I want more than that.” I place my hand over her heart. “I want this. I love you Spencer Carlin. I am in love with you, always have been and always will be.” She never moves my hand and she just tries to steady her breathing for a moment. I can feel her heart rate speed up instantly. She opens her mouth and closes it. Again. Then, “I love you Ashley, so much.” She seems distracted slightly before muttering, “God, this song.” Okay, random.

“Way to kill the mood but what’s so wrong with this song. I actually like it.”

“Ash, it’s our song. Me and Aiden’s”

‘Oh, oooohhhh! Yeah that’s not good.’ “Oh, you want me to-”

“No, no, it’s still a nice song. Just I-” she stumbles as I start humming. I can’t help it. The song is beautiful and it does fit the moment. I’m lost in this woman. I could stay this way forever, never finding my way if it means I’ll be hers.

The End…

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A/N: I’m thinking of doing a little more after this…how everyone changes…or doesn’t. Basically just a glimpse into life after Aiden walks in on them.