It took a while but eventually her guy was like one of my best hang out buds. If Spencer chose to move on with anyone I’m glad he’s the one. He’s so good for her and to her but lately something has been off. I think she may be questioning whether he’s the right one for her. We talk, A LOT. And recently it’s been, "get me out of this house, he’s smothering me" or "I can’t stand to go home right now. Can we go see a movie or catch dinner or something." She always just sporadically calls me and not that I hate it but it’s not really persistent and she never has a reason as to where the actions come from but it’s always Aiden she’s getting away from and me she’s coming to. Sometimes when she would say things it was as if it was to bait me to see how I’d react. I held my ground and gave her the best ‘best friend’ advice I could give her. One look into her blue eyes always gave her away. I know that woman better than she knows herself and I can read her like an open book. She still loves Aiden, but she’s not in love with him. I feel bad because there’s the feeling that I can’t tell her to follow her heart when I’m rooting for her heart to be with me. Sure, I’m the ‘best friend’ but that definitely stroked my ego knowing that I was her escape. At first it was meaningless little things but it turned into sleepovers and waking up in each others arms the next morning.

That started it all. The feeling of her being back in my arms even if just for a moment made me think of happier times between us and made me want more than a friendship with her. She was and still is the love of my life.

The next day all would be fine and she would go home and we never talked about our mornings of taking in the silence around us and simply staring at each other for long moments. Aiden was completely clueless. I was unaware of how much he really knew. He mentioned he knew me and Spencer had a past and I almost shit my pants with fear thinking of how he would react to our history but the next words out of his mouth gave Spencer away. ‘I’m sorry you had to move so far away. It’s a shame you girls lost touch the way you did. Spence said you were her superwoman during HS. She really missed you.’ Yeah, that was all I could offer him. A simple ‘yeah’. What the hell? I have to admit that the superwoman comment made my heart swoon but again that night was drowned out by a Jessica or an Amanda…who really cares what her name was but that was a good night. I refused to think about Spencer even though she was in my every thought. She was the one thing that mattered. She’s my drug. She’s all I need.

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