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    Going Back – (Chapter: Last Time)

    Story written on January 10, 2009 by likeaheartneedsabeat.
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    Story Shortlink: https://www.lf.beardesk.com/?p=19960
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    Love was suppose to hurt, not kill.

    Love was suppose to hurt, not kill.

    Present time

    About to land in Ohio

     

                          If I would have known just how broken she could have made me, I still believe that I would have done it again. No regrets. The time I had with her was more than incredible. I cherish it and have replayed ‘us’ over again for 3 years, and that’s why being back is going to hurt so bad.

                       I close my eyes as the plane descended. This was the worst part for me. To be honest the lock of my eyes and the water that was ready to spill from them had nothing to do with the possibility of a rough landing. It did however have every thing to do with the past I was fixing to face. The demons that were ready to escape and find me. The blue-eyed ghost that had haunted my every dream. My locked tight eyes tried to refrain the last memories of Spencer to come back into my mind, but it was inevitable. I had to prepare myself. But it hurt, so damn much.

     

     

     

    April 2005… 4 Months After Twelfth Night

     

                            Spencer and I have been having a secret relationship for months. Four months, 1 week, and 5 days to be exact. I hate it, that I have to hide how I feel, and who I feel it with. I’m losing my grip, and It’s only getting worse with prom coming up.

                           Adien and I are sitting in a dress shop watching Spencer and Kyla try on dress after dress. Adien’s having a ball, sitting there with his mouth open and tongue hanging out. I’m just thinking about how I’m not going. I mean why do I want to go and watch the woman I’m in love with dance with someone who is not me. So no, I’m not going.

     

     

                          So I’m at the Prom. Spencer begged, and looked at me with those eyes of hers so here I am sitting at the bleachers and watching as everyone else dances. I’m watching Patrick have his unworthy hands wrapped around her. I’m watching as he say’s something in her ear and she gives him a fake smile. God, why doesn’t she just tell him she loves me not him?? Why doesn’t she just stop hurting me??Why does it hurt so bad to have the only thing I want and need???

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    2. *sigh* I love it when I see you’ve posted a new chapter! That was sad but I can totally see why Ashley left. Speencer probably would never have left Patrick…I hope when they meet again Spencer sees sense!! Can’t wait to find out!!

    3. i love it when you post.lol this was a sad chapter but i still liked it and the songs that you picked to go with it…do post more! i can’t wait!=]

    4. oh man that was so sad. but it needed to be done eh? maybe when spence sees ash again she’ll realize that it’s meant to be. hopefully anyway! great update, pms!

    6. hey okay so first thank you for postng the songs in the a/n lol :) thank you :0 but the damn chapter almost made me cry,okay so the song basicly did most of that but hey it still almost made me cry lol :0 i cant beleive what happened she stayed in a secret relation ship with a girl for months,thats dedication. :) sucks they didnt end up together :( but i know youll fix it……right ;) lol :) i was totaly giving you the look from this video —http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Zk3TcviFeA–lol so funny but hey pms please :) you did realy good :)

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