I couldn’t get that image of her out of my head. It had been all week and still the only thing I could think of was those ice blue eyes, which used to be soft and warm. She had changed and this change wasn’t for the better. I had made her into a person I thought she would never become. She wasn’t the happy go lucky girl from Ohio anymore. She was someone who hid her emotions behind this façade she had built around herself to please everyone else.

Seeing her the other day only brought back memories of our last conversation. And these memories were not ones that were going to get me out of my current mood. I barely said anything in this conversation, but listened as I ruined everything. It was that day that she forever took away a part of me. And I did the same to her.

***flashback***

It was exactly four days after prom and I had been at the hospital with Aiden for most of them. Spencer had called well over the required number of times, but those too had stopped not too long ago. I had up and left her that night without so much more than a look that said I’m sorry. I had grabbed Aiden’s hand and that was the last time I had seen her.

It was on the fourth day that I found out Aiden was being released and that scared me more than him being in the hospital. Once he was out, we were real. And despite knowing my decision all I wanted to do was see her and hold her or better yet be held by her. I wanted to see her, try and explain the things that I knew I couldn’t. Things that I knew I was stupid for even suggesting, but things that I believed were right. I knew however that these words would get me nowhere. My decision wasn’t going to change, my choice was made.

Yet I still found myself outside her house at a time I knew she would be alone. These used to be our precious hours. Hours we’d spend in her bedroom, doing whatever the moment saw fit. This more times than not ended with us wrapped in each others bodies under her sheets.