I woke up early so we could fix the room for the sessions, she was still sleeping, trembling from time to time, it wasn’t a peaceful sleep but then again a drug indorsed coma never is… I felt bad that I had to leave her there tied to the bed but I knew the risk so I left without untying her.

We arranged the room similar to what I did at my house; Punching bag, removal of sharp objects and so on. I was distracted most of the time, staring at the carpet thinking about her and Rob knew not to mention it, we worked in silence.

About an hour latter I came into her room. She was awake staring at the ceiling.

I didn’t know what to say… I was considering it as I was approaching the bed it was the longest walk ever… ‘Who is Lucy? How will she react to what happened last night? Will she remember? Am I ready to know…’

"It’s o.k." I heard her when I reached the bed. "I’m o.k. now you can untie Me." she said.

"Oh… I’m glad" I smiled but she was still staring at the ceiling. I released her almost fearfully, afraid I’m making a mistake but the second she was free she rose up suddenly, I flinched for a moment preparing for the worst but then realized she was hugging me in a tight embrace and happily I hugged her back.

"I don’t think I can do this" she said desperately "I want to for you but…" "No" I stopped her leaning back a bit so I could look into her eyes, they where almost like Spencer’s now… "Not for me, for us and for yourself that’s what needs to drive you! You need to believe in yourself. I do, why can’t you?" she looked away for a second then back into my eyes with her determined look.

"I’m ready"

After she got dressed and I replaced her bandages we headed to her first session with Robert. on our way I told her I could only be in the room for her so she could see me but I’m not her doctor and I couldn’t interfere. She gave me her cockeyed look and I smiled.